add it to the list

Life is funny sometimes.

Like how I JUST posted my plan for figuring out what is healthy for my family. I've had those issues stewing in me for months, and just the past couple weeks I finally figured out where to start. I've done countless hours of research. I have recipes, and serving sizes, and menu plans. Well, I got a call from my doctor, the NEXT DAY. I failed my 3 hour glucose tolerance test. Cue hysteria.

At first, I was so confused. HOW did I fail it? Yes, I know that we don't always eat great, but I'm not overweight, I don't sit around eating cookies and ice cream. Turns out, I had no idea what Gestational Diabetes means. My doctor told me, (at least in my case) it has nothing to do with my weight, or what I eat (although, controlling your diet helps manage it). I'm also feeling like I have already had so many problems with this pregnancy that this is just another thing to add to the list. It's frustrating. Everyone says that things happen for a reason, or that God doesn't give you more than you can handle. I'm losing faith in both of those statements right now.

So, I got about one thousand pages of info, food logs, etc. I got my glucometer, and an appointment with a dietician. I'm close to a week in with monitoring my blood sugar, and logging everything I eat. It's a lot of work, and I'm finding I have even more questions than I had last week. My numbers are great (I think). They're usually a little on the low side, if anything. It's hard to do a lot of research because everyone is different with what they can eat and how it will effect them. I've honestly found that I can eat almost exactly how I was before I started all the monitoring. The biggest change I've had to make is adding more protein. Also, everything I eat is measured so I can log how much of it I'm eating just incase my numbers go crazy. I also don't really have any sweets anymore, except at my night-time snack. Let me tell you, I can't wait for the day when I can have a Milky Way if I want! :)



life. death. things.

We've had plenty going on. Just nothing really that fun. Can I make you a list?

1. Our dog, Abby, messed up her back and we thought she was paralyzed. We took her outside to play about 2 weeks ago and her back legs just weren't working. She didn't seem to be in pain, but she was just dragging her legs around. We've had 6 vet visits so far (4 last week, 2 this week) and we have 2 more next week. She has to keep going in to get a laser treatment on her back to help with the swelling. She is getting better, but it has been a slow and hard process.

2. My Grandma passed away. I don't want to get too into this one, but I'll just say that it was basically expected. The funeral is on Saturday.

Ok, so this doesn't look like a very big list. It's only TWO things. But those things feel like they carry the weight of twenty things. I've just been so overwhelmed with it all. Last week we not only had the 4 vet appointments, we also had a check-up for Parker. Then this week we had the 2 vet appointments and a check up for the little babe in the belly. (That appointment was actually fun!) Everything is looking good and I got to see the little one looking very baby like, and even moving around a ton.

Here, have a picture or two.

I go back to the doctor in 2 weeks for my next check up & ultrasound! Then we have the usual at 20 weeks and then the ultrasounds will stop for a while and I'll resume the normal schedule of check ups (as long as everything stays looking how it is now).

I'm not going to make any promises on when I'll be back or how often I'll be posting, because it seems like I haven't been keeping my word. I can tell you that I WILL be back, just not sure how soon! :)

12 weeks {+1 day}

**sorry for the pile of posts showing up on your feed. apparently my posts weren't publishing when I was scheduling them.**

I had my 12 week appointment today (12 weeks! how did this happen?!). I heard the heartbeat again (165) and it was beautiful. Ben and Parker went with me, but Parker had a melt down in the waiting room so they went for a walk & drive while I had my appointment. Everything is looking good, and I go back in two weeks for an ultrasound to check on my cervical length.

For some reason, this pregnancy still doesn't feel real. My belly is slowly growing, I'm still nauseous every morning and evening, I've seen the baby on ultrasound twice, but I just don't feel like it's actually happening. I know, it sounds crazy but that's just how it is for now. It's so different from when I was pregnant the first time. That was one planned & it was all I could think about. This one was a surprise and I also have a toddler to chase around all day, so I don't stop to really think about being pregnant/the baby that often. I really hope it sinks in soon!

That's really all there is for this update. I know, it's kind of boring. There just isn't much going on in the pregnancy department. I fully intended on taking a belly picture today (because I looked really pretty in a new dress!), but it didn't happen. Next week?